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IT'S SO CURIOUS: ONE CAN RESIST TEARS AND 'BEHAVE' VERY WELL IN THE HARDEST HOURS OF GRIEF...BUT THEN SOMEONE MAKES YOU A FRIENDLY SIGN BEHIND A WINDOW, OR ONE NOTICES A FLOWER THAT WAS IN BUD ONLY YESTERDAY, HAS SUDDENLY BLOSSEMED. OR A LETTER SLIPS FROM A DRAWER...AND EVERYTHING COLLASPES....
COLETTE
Aunt Terrie..this isn't really a memory but I feel like I need to talk to you. Last night I got off of work at 11 and I take 435 home from north kansas city...I definitely dont know my way around down there. I work at Ameristar casino by the river & all those bridges...anyway...I was about to go home but I realized that 435 was blocked off so I called Pookie so he could tell me how to get home. He told me he would stay on the phone with me but my stupid phone cut out and wouldnt come back on. So I was lost....& sooo scared. I started to freak out because all I could think about was that stupid Missouri river & you...& the fact that I didnt know how to get home. I HATE that river, & I HATE those bridges....I couldnt do anything but cry. The smell of the river made me want to throw up. I eventually found my way home & as soon as I got into Mamas house I went to her room & started balling. I dont think Ive cried that hard in a long times. I couldnt get the story out because I was crying so hard. But all I could think about was you. Once I find another job Im quitting ameristar. I cant work by that river or those bridges & probably wont make my way down there for a while after I quit. Anyway I jsut felt that I should tell you that story...you were on my mond so hard that it hurt....I miss you lots & I really wish you were here so that none of us would be going through this pain because it really hurts. I know that my mama misses you so much, she always cries & I just know that you being gone has changed everyones life. Antie misses you lots too, I might not be around her much but her and mama are one in the same, which is probably why they argue sometimes, its all love though. They are both really big cry babies. Jackie is growing up, I know Im not much older than her but she is grown!! Doing exactly what she needs to do!! Brandon is like my 3rd brother!! I love him lots & we would watch movies together on the weekends & wrestling on Mondays, he's so concieted lol...this would be way too long if I told you about everyone so just know that we all love you & miss you!!!!!!! <3
Love always, Eri
HERE IS A BEAUTIFUL PUCTURE OF YOU'RE BABY GIRL AT HER PROM!!! SHE SAID TODAY THAT SHE WAS NERVOUS....HER GRADUATION IS MONDAY!!!
WELL TERRIE....WE GOT THIS MOTHER'S DAY OVER.... IT WAS HARD. BUT WE GOT THROUGH...WE HAD TO..WE ALL MISS YOU SO SO MUCH...I WENT TO SEE YOU TODAY...I DIDN'T WANT TO BE IN JACKIES WAY WHEN SHE CAME TO SEE YOU...BUT I WAS
SHE WAS COOL, AND WE SAT THERE TOGETHER IN OUR OWN THOUGHTS. IT'S JUST SO HARD TO SEE HER IN THAT SITUATION...
I TOLD HER I WOULD LEAVE HER ALONE, BEFORE EVERYONE ELSE STARTED TO COME...JUST SO SHE COULD BE ALONE WITH HER MOM.AS I WAS LEAVING PAULA, BRANDON,BOOM BOOM, AND AUBREE WAS PULLING UP...THAT'S WHEN THE TEARS STARTED FALLING
ALTHOUGH THESE MONTHS HAVE GONE BY....IT IS STILL HARD TO BELIEVE THAT THIS IS HAPPENING TO US!!!IT'S SO PAINFUL
MY JACKIE HAD A VERY HARD DAY....MAMA SHELION TOOK HER OUT TO DINNER, AND SHE CAME HOME...SHE WAS IN BED PROBABLY BY 8:30
SHE DESERVES THIS REST...I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALWAYS!!!
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TERRIE... I LOVE YOU!! I MISS YOU!!.BUT YOU ALREADY KNOW THAT.... JACKIE HAD HER PROM YESTERDAY....ABSOLUTLEY GORGEOUS!!!
OF COURSE, I WILL SEND YOU PICTURES.......MS SIMONE BROUGHT BRANDON OVER TO AMBERS HOUSE, TO SEE HER OFF...
HE'S SO COOL!!! LOL ANYWAY, LOVE YU, MISS YOU, OUR HEARTS ARE HERE
HEY TERRIE.... JACKIE HAS PROM TODAY!!I WILL SEND YOU PICTURES, OK? WE ARE GOING TO GET HET HAIR DONE THIS MORNING....SHE IS GOING TO BE SOOO PRETTY!!! I AM GOING TO STOP NOW...I THINK MY FEELINGS ARE GETTING THE BEST OF ME.
I MISS YOU... I WANT TO SAY I CAN IMAGINE THE FEELINGS JACKIE IS EXPERIENCING RIGHT NOW, SO CLOSE TO MOTHERS DAY, BUT I CAN'T...YEA WE LOST OUR MOTHER
AND IT WAS SO HARD...AND WE WERE SO HURT...BUT AT THIS AGE?....I LOVE JACKIE SO MUCH....I KNOW YOU CAN SEE IT AND FEEL THE LOVE I HAVE FOR HER
. YOU JUST KEEP LIFTING ME...YOU ARE MY INSPIRATION
I LOVE YOU!!
HEY TERRIE...IT'S AFTER 11 OCLOCK... I SHOULD BE SLEEP. JACKIE GOT HER CAP AND GOWN TODAY.
ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS, HUH? I NEED YOU TO COME AND TALK TO AMBER. SHE IS HAVING A HARD TIME. SHE HAD A TALK WITH PAULA THE OTHER DAY. SHE HAD A TALK WITH RODNEY THE OTHER DAY. WE HAD A TALK. SHE SAYS SHE IS ANGRY. IT'S ONE BIG CHAIN OF EVENTS...STARTING WITH YOU.
IT SEEMS YOU WERE EVERYONE'S GO TO PERSON. JUST TO TALK.... I KNOW I DID.AMBER IS VERY UPSET. SHE SAID THE PESON I WOULD TALK TO IS NOT HERE.....SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY WHO THAT PERSON WAS.
HEARTS ARE BROKEN THAT WILL NEVER BE HEALED
SO TRY AND COME DOWN AND INVADE AMBER'S DREAMS... SHE NEEDS YOU!! I DO TO....5/4/09
HEY TERRIE! WHEN WE PASS ALL OF OUR MILESTONES OF LIFE...WE MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! ANOTHER MOMENT HAS PASSED THAT YOU ARE NOT HERE.
MARISSA HAD HER PROM ON SAT. 25TH OF APRIL. SHE WAS SO PRETTY!!! I KNOW THIS IS SOMETHING WE HAVE TALKED ABOUT.... MARISSA GOING TO THE PROM. I HATE THAT YOU'RE NOT HERE. I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN OVER HERE WITH US. I MISS YOU!!!
HEY TERRIE!!! NEWS FOR YOU!!! I KNOW YOU WERE LOOKING FORWARD TO AMBER FINISHING SCHOOL..... WELL SHE FINISHED HER NINE MONTHS, AND SHE WAS DOING HER EXTERNSHIP AT SWOPEHEALTH.... I AM SO PROUD OF HER, AND YOU WOULD BE TOO.... I WISH YOU WERE HERE TO EXPERIENCE ALL THIS..... SHE WOULD LOVE TO TELL YOU THIS... THEY HAVE TAKEN HER APP THERE SO CROSS YOUR FINGERS SHE GETS THE JOB!!!! SHE CALLED ME TODAY 3/14 SAYING SHE DID NOT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO.... WELL IF YOU WERE HERE, THAT WOULDN'T BE A PROBLEM WE ALL MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH... WE ARE COMING ALONG WITH THE WEDDING GOT TICKETS PAID FOR AND THE ROOM... JUST WORKING ON THE PASSPORT...ITS SO HARD WITHOUT YOU EVERY DAY WE STILL HAVE TEARS. HAPPY TEARS, REMEMBERING TEARS, SWEET TEARS, TEARS BECAUSE YOU WOULD LOVE TO ADAM AND AUBREE GROWING UP I KNOW YOU LOVED MY GRAND BABIES,, THEY STILL MENTION YOU..... I LOVE YOU!!!!
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