HEY TERRIE...THINKING OF YOU....AS ALWAYS I DON'T THINK I TOLD YOU THAT AMBER WAS BAPTIZED...I THINK IT WAS JUNE 8TH.... I THINK THAT IS THE CORRECT DATE... I KNOW YOU KNOW... SHE IS DOING A LOT OF THINGS YOU WOULD BE PROUD OF....IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCE...... I AM SO PROUD...
Hey Terrie... today is your birthday and I am missing you..My computer has been down the past couple of days.... It is up now....I am home alone most of the time...and I love it, I might add.. marissa is at work,,,and my jackie is gone...I miss her....I love you so much...You are still talked about daily....you surround me..At home and at work...you are everywhere.....It's still so hard to believe that you are not here with us!!!
THIS POEM IS FOR MAMA......I REMEMBER LYING BESIDE YOU THAT NIGHT....ONLY ME AND YOU....GOD KNOWS I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE...I TOLD YOU IT WAS OK...TO LEAVE US... YOU WERE IN SO MUCH PAIN...I REMEMBER.......
When I laid there beside you,
Could you feel me there?
My arms were wrapped around you,
And I was stroking your hair.
I was talking about all the good times,
For me they were every single day.
I wanted you to feel love and comfort,
And happy in some way.
I watched your every breath,
And prayed that each one wasn't your last.
The time we got to share together,
Went by too quick...Too fast.
I wanted you to wake up,
Please mama...Open your eyes.
Tell me this is a nightmare,
And not our goodbyes.
As your last breath grew closer,
We layer there peacefully together.
My heart continually breaking,
Because I wanted you forever.
Then there it was,
Your final breath of air.
I didn't want to believe it,
This is so cruel and not fair.
I held your beautiful face,
And prayed you'd breath again.
I wasn't ready for you to go,
I couldn't admit that this was the end.
But then I realized that you were now in peace,
And not suffering anymore.
You were beginning the life of an Angel,
And your body would no loner be sore.
I held you close and squeezed you tight,
And tried to say goodbye.
I've lost my mama and my number one best friend,
All my heart could do is cry.
I slowly got up,
I wanted so much to stay.
I leaned over and gave you one more kiss,
It was so hard to walk away.
Mama you are my entire world,
And I miss you so very much.
I wish I could feel your loveable cuddle,
And your soft and gentle touch.
But for now I have to wait,
Until we meet again.
You will always be in my heart and thoughts,
My dear mother and best friend.
Always and Forever,
Our hearts will always touch.
Always and Forever,
Your baby girl loves you so much.
Hi Terrie I am missing you so much...I am sad... we got Jackie off to college this morning. I am very sad...Yea I know it's a good thing..It feels like I am losing another piece of you... I wrote her a letter and put it in a card for her to read later... I will miss her beautiful smile, her laugh...when she is really happy and acting crazy.. her stupid jokes...everything about her. i miss her already lol they just probably got there about 12 noon... and I know she is coming back... I can't help the tears... on a good note...Andre is back home.....and I know that is a good thing for brandon.... he needs his uncle... his dads brother...I am so grateful...
I LOVE YOU
Hey Terrie!!! here we are in Jamaica!!! This is when we were on the catamaran...
Me, paula, debbie, keisha, britt, and debbies friend{ dang! I can never remember her name} anyways we are riding out to sea... the carribean sea!!! just beautuful!!!! the guys took us out so far.... i am sure they knew where they were taking us. Brit wanted to get out of the boat... we were like oh no!!! she got out!!! and the water came up to her chest... we all got out!!! kind of scary at first... but we all stood in the middle of the sea...and held hands....LOL!!! we sent love up to you and mama....we sang ring around the rosie!!! yep in the middle of the sea.... it was beautiful... you were supposed to be here..
TERRIE....I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU SOMETHING TERRIBLE.... WE LAID YOU TO REST 365 DAYS AGO...YESTERDAY......I KNOW THAT DAY WAS ON EVERYONES MIND!!!!! GONE TOO SOON!!!! I LOVE YOU
365 DAYS AGO! PAULA AND I WERE LOOKING FOR YOU!!!!! SHE CALLED ME EARLY IN THE MORNING.. SAID YOU DID NOT COME BACK LAST NIGHT... WE RODE ALL OVER KANSAS CITY...WE WENT OVER HIS HOUSE IN BACK OF HIS HOUSE....AFRAID BUT READY TO KICK SOME YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!! WE RODE THROUGH LONGVIEW LAKE. UP NORTH, DOWN SOUTH LOOKING FOR OUR SISTER...WE DID EVERYTHING WE COULD.....WE COULD NOT FIND YOU!!!!! I MISS YOU..... I LOVE YOU.....
THIS PAIN WILL NEVER CEASE......
HEY SWEET SISTER!!!! I MISS YOU SOMETHING TERRIBLE!!!! THE PAIN WILL NEVER GO AWAY.... WE ARE ALMOST TO THE FOURTH OF JULY.
I KNOW THE LAST WORDS YOU SAID TO ME... HOW LUCKY I AM TO HAVE HAD THAT....WILLIE CAME BY TO GIVE ME MONEY TO GIVE TO YOU FOR BRANDON...I MET YOU AND JACKIE UP TO WALMART
WE WALKED AROUND THE STORE LAUGHING AND TALKING, ENJOYING THAT TIME WE HAD WITH EACH OTHER...AS ALWAYS... WE WERE IN THE CHECKOUT LINE AT THE SAME TIME. YOU IN ONE AND ME IN THE OTHER.....YOU SAID BYE...I LOVE YOU....I SAID BYE...I LOVE YOU!!!!!
I AM SO HURT...NO ONE COULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME I WOULD SEE MY BEAUTIFUL SISTER!!!!......I CAN"T STOP CRYING...WRITING THIS HAS BECOME TOO MUCH!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I MISS YOU SO MUCH...
WE FINALLY REALIZED THE GUYS KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING..... BRIT GOT OUT... THE WATER CAME UP TO HER CHEST... WE ALL GOT OUT OF THE BOAT!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? WE COULDN'T..... WE ALL HELD HANDS AND GAVE ALL OUR LOVE TO YOU....IN THE